Portage has had a lasting impact on my life in ways that are difficult to fully put into words. What once felt like my last chance became one of the most important turning points in my life. I can confidently say that Portage is more than just another rehab; it is a second home.
When I first arrived at Portage, I was a version of myself that I hardly recognize now. I was struggling, angry, and unable to take accountability for my actions. I didn’t believe I had a serious problem, and I resisted the idea of treatment for a long time. Looking back, I can see how much I needed that support, even when I wasn’t ready to accept it.
Portage’s mission truly comes to life through the way they support each individual. It’s not just about sobriety; it’s about building a foundation for a better life. They teach you skills that, in life, you are just expected to know. During my time there, I learned skills that I continue to use every day. These were things I didn’t have before, and they’ve made all the difference in how I navigate challenges, relationships, and my future.
Going to Portage doesn’t guarantee sobriety; they don’t have a cure for addiction hidden in the lake, and like anything else, it’s not going to be what helps every person who goes there. I don’t talk so highly of Portage based on success rates. I talk highly of them because they teach skills that are applicable to everyone, regardless of their experience with substances. Is Portage for everyone? Absolutely not. Would our communities benefit if skills like emotional regulation and accountability were standard teachings? Absolutely.
One of the moments that stands out to me the most isn’t just a single event, but the sense of community I experienced. Whether it was late-night conversations, shared laughter, or the support I received during the hardest days, I was constantly reminded that I wasn’t alone. Over time, the people around me, both peers and staff, became like family. That feeling of belonging is something I will carry with me forever.
Portage wasn’t easy. There were moments of frustration, doubt, and wanting to give up. But even in those moments, the staff never gave up on me, even when I really wished they would. One memory that stands out is returning after my relapse. I felt ashamed and convinced I had failed, but they welcomed me back with support instead of judgment. That experience showed me what true care and commitment looks like, and it continues to motivate me in my recovery.
Because of Portage, I am living a life I once didn’t think was possible. I have rebuilt relationships, returned to my goals, and learned how to manage my emotions in a healthy way. Most importantly, I have gained a sense of self that I had lost for a long time.
My biggest fear used to be the future. Simply because I had no idea who I wanted to be. I spent my life running from my problems, I took out my self-anger on everyone else, and I acted selfishly any chance I got. My biggest fear now is becoming that person again. A person who was so hopeless that they gave up control and gave up on themselves. Portage helped me become the person that drugs and alcohol were holding me back from being. They helped me be me again. Portage, alongside my amazing parents, saved my life.
As Cassidy Lake celebrates its 30th anniversary, I want to express my deepest gratitude and congratulations. The impact this program has had on so many lives, including mine, is incredible. Thank you for creating a place where people are given the opportunity to grow, heal, and rediscover themselves. Portage truly changes lives, and I am proud to be one of many who can say it helped save mine. I am forever grateful for all the effort Portage and my family put in to keep me there. It’s not what I wanted, but it is what I needed.
- Kaylee, Youth Centre Cassidy Lake, New Brunswick
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