{"id":39349,"date":"2024-02-12T13:51:36","date_gmt":"2024-02-12T18:51:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/the-more-i-used-the-more-i-resented-everyone-on-the-planet\/"},"modified":"2025-07-30T13:10:35","modified_gmt":"2025-07-30T18:10:35","slug":"the-more-i-used-the-more-i-resented-everyone-on-the-planet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/the-more-i-used-the-more-i-resented-everyone-on-the-planet\/","title":{"rendered":"The more I used, the more I resented everyone on the planet"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<p class=\"lead\">My life before Portage was chaos. I wasn&#8217;t living, I was surviving. I experienced perinatal bereavement, but never really faced up to it. Then my father passed away and I completely lost my footing. And so began my descent into hell. What followed was an interminable succession of stupid, ill-considered decisions that destroyed everyone I loved.<\/p>\r\n<p>In an attempt to forget, I turned to substance use. But to no avail. Caught in an infernal spiral, the more I attempted to escape, the less relief I found. And the more I used, the more I realized everything I had lost, the less enjoyment I had and the more I resented everyone. When the father of my first three children passed on in March 2021, I lost all hope of ever having a fulfilling family life. His death prompted me to take back control of my life and, by November 2021, the idea of entering Portage&#8217;s <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/quebec\/mother-child-program\/\">Mother-Child program<\/a> had taken root.<\/p>\r\n<p>By January 2022, I had started the process to attend Portage and there was no going back. On March 28, 2022, I embarked on the most amazing journey towards a new beginning. <strong>The Portage program helped me develop <\/strong><a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/competencies\/\"><strong>the competencies<\/strong><\/a><strong> that are vital to maintaining a positive lifestyle <\/strong>and taught me about the importance of positive peer pressure. Thanks to the program, not only did I stop using, but I stopped smoking cigarettes too. It taught me how to allow myself to be vulnerable and to trust others, which was extremely beneficial to me.<\/p>\r\n<p>I completed my program on February 7, 2023. Since then, I&#8217;ve moved into a Mother-Child community housing facility, where I continue to work on myself. Since attending Portage, I&#8217;ve adopted a positive lifestyle, gotten my driver&#8217;s licence, completed <a href=\"https:\/\/projetmire.com\/services\/\">the MIRE employment reintegration program<\/a>, settled my debts and completed an intensive course at college. Moreover, the DPJ (Youth Protection) has closed my child&#8217;s file.<\/p>\r\n<p>I&#8217;ve finally established healthy, significant relationships, and freed myself from dependency once and for all.<\/p>\r\n<p><em>Never live in the shadows again.<\/em><\/p>\r\n<p>Thank you Portage.<\/p>\r\n<p><strong>Vanessa, Mother-Child Program, 2023<\/strong><\/p>\r\n<p>Share this article :<\/p>\r\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/sharer.php?u=https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/?p=39349&amp;fl_builder&amp;title=The+more+I+used%2C+the+more+I+resented+everyone+on+the+planet\"> Share on Facebook <\/a> <a href=\"https:\/\/www.linkedin.com\/shareArticle?mini=true&amp;url=https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/?p=39349&amp;fl_builder&amp;title=The+more+I+used%2C+the+more+I+resented+everyone+on+the+planet\"> Share on Linkedin <\/a><\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My life before Portage was chaos. I wasn&#8217;t living, I was surviving. I experienced perinatal bereavement, but never really faced up to it. Then my father passed away and I completely lost my footing. And so began my descent into hell. What followed was an interminable succession of stupid, ill-considered decisions that destroyed everyone I&#8230;  <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/the-more-i-used-the-more-i-resented-everyone-on-the-planet\/\" class=\"more-link\" title=\"Read The more I used, the more I resented everyone on the planet\">Read more &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":19,"featured_media":39346,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[364],"tags":[285,370],"class_list":["post-39349","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-testimonial","tag-family","tag-mother-and-child"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39349","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/19"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=39349"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39349\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":44432,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39349\/revisions\/44432"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/39346"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=39349"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=39349"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=39349"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}