{"id":23659,"date":"2019-09-11T09:07:08","date_gmt":"2019-09-11T14:07:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/portage.hamakmarketingnumerique.com\/uncategorized\/before-i-went-to-portage-i-felt-alone\/"},"modified":"2025-07-30T14:06:57","modified_gmt":"2025-07-30T19:06:57","slug":"before-i-went-to-portage-i-felt-alone","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/before-i-went-to-portage-i-felt-alone\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cBefore I went to Portage, I felt alone\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<p class=\"lead\">I used to feel like I was born to be an addict. My biological mother drank and took heroine while she was pregnant with my twin brother and me. And addiction runs deep in my biological family. My parents, who adopted me when I was born, told me I would be more susceptible to addiction issues because of this and warned me that I needed to be extra careful.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>That didn\u2019t stop me from having my first drink in the seventh grade. By the time I was in high school, I was drinking every day, all day. I loved the feeling \u2013 escaping my problems of feeling alone and anxious. Eventually I moved on to drugs, and as I got deeper into my addiction, the drugs got harder and I became someone I didn\u2019t recognize. It was easy for me to use my biological family\u2019s history as a crutch- an excuse for my addiction.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>My whole life, my biggest fear was becoming like my biological mother and I was well on my way.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>I knew I\u2019d hit rock bottom when I tried smoking crack. This was my biological mom\u2019s drug of choice. After spending a night in jail, it was clear to me that I needed to make a change. That\u2019s how I ended up at <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/services\/\">Portage<\/a>.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>When I first got there, I was scared. But then I started liking it. For the first time in a long time, I didn\u2019t feel alone. I liked talking to the other girls \u2013 they were my age and understood what I was going through. I wasn\u2019t judged for my past, I was accepted. And I really enjoyed having a routine again.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>After five months at <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/services\/\">Portage<\/a>, I was able to go back home. The sobriety road hasn\u2019t always been easy but Portage taught me <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/competencies\/\">the tools<\/a> I needed to stay on track. I am also diligent about attending AA meetings as they are important to my sobriety.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>It\u2019s been three years since I left <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/services\/\">Portage<\/a>. I now have an 18-month old daughter and she is my world. I\u2019ve been accepted into school for social services \u2013 I want to help protect and help kids like me.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>I am proud of my sobriety. It enables me to be a good mom. Now, instead of resenting my biological family\u2019s history, I am thankful because it led me to where I am in my life today. I have parents who love me and supported me unconditionally. I am proud to buck the trend of addiction in my birth family.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>I now know that I wasn\u2019t born to be an addict. I was born to be a survivor \u2013 to overcome the cards that were stacked against me \u2013 and embrace the life I have to live.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>Miranda<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I used to feel like I was born to be an addict. My biological mother drank and took heroine while she was pregnant with my twin brother and me. And addiction runs deep in my biological family. My parents, who adopted me when I was born, told me I would be more susceptible to addiction&#8230;  <a href=\"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/before-i-went-to-portage-i-felt-alone\/\" class=\"more-link\" title=\"Read \u201cBefore I went to Portage, I felt alone\u201d\">Read more &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":10,"featured_media":23656,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[364],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-23659","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-testimonial"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23659","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/10"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=23659"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23659\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":44471,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23659\/revisions\/44471"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/23656"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=23659"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=23659"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/portage.ca\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=23659"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}